It always comes back.

I'm always chasing it away; these thoughts of you.
But it never fails to come back into mind.

How long more till I can be myself again?
I'm guessing AGES.
This musn't continue.

I want you back, ole' self.

I need someone to talk to.
But the topic will probably shock them so much so that I will be avoided.
Makes me wanna cry..
I'm really sorry if the past few posts have bothered any of you.
Like irritate you or something but my blog is where I let things out.

Peace!

Superduperultrahappy.

LOL! this was from like.....2 years ago?

I'm in "HAPPY MODE" now.
So I shall post about stuff that makes me happy.
Like the fact that All the 5Ns who're taking art have completed our CANVAS/ILLUSTRATION PAPER!
HOLLERATCHACREW!

And that I finally had Oreo McFlurry.
Oh yeah, Had a Double CHISBURRGURR meal also.
Ultra fattening but who cares? It made my day.

My mind is not filled with you for now.
Let it be forever, please?

I'm so happy I can do Physics for 5 hours without getting bored.
Does that make sense?
No/yes?

So, I SHALL GO DO PHYSICS AND MATHEMATICS!

PEACE!

NIKI H. BHASI!

ENHORABUENA NIKI H. BHASI!

My dear cousin's graduating from Curtin!
Can I get a OHHHHHHHHHH SNAPPITY SNAPPPP!!!
Omg, I'm excited.

La Paz.

Fiziks.

This is sooo coooool!

I gots 2 fizikis paprs to complete.
Looking forward to doing them.

And then at about 7, TO THE AIRPORT I GO!
With my sister and cousins.
I don't know if I should be excited or not.
Cos it's only the airport, a 15 minute journey from my place...but there's the Viewing gallery and Swensens and Pilots and Air stewardesses and Aircraft Engineers and Airport managers.
SO I'M EXCITED! :D

I still can't decide on what to wear.
*It's the Airport for crying out loud!* < My conscience keeps telling me that.
Fooh, shush up.

Peace!

Friggin' twilight.

Twilight by JERSHEY SHORE!
Snooki! (L)

You get under my skin.

I let myself go.
Fall into your trap.
I tried to escape but everytime I try, I fall deeper.
And I can't down these tears that I've cried.

The heaviness inside.I'm so petrified.
I can't get myself back together.

This might not make sense to you. But it does to me.

Call me jealous.

YOU & YOU!!!! PISS ME OFF.
You, exercise self-control.
YOU!!!! Grrrrr.I would kill you if I could.

Shake-a-bootaye-shake-a-bootaye.

Warning: LONG ASS POST!

Today pretty much sucked.
Except for Captain's ball during recess and Volleyball after school!
Okay so, mood was wrecked the moment I entered Xinmin's compound.
It's not the school, it's not the class, it's just ONE person.
Gah. Nonsense.

Okay so, maths was okay.
PE, Could choose between Handball and the Gym.
For me, Handball was a BIG FAT NO! so the gym it was.
Mr singh said "You obviously do not know how to use it" WAHLAU PA! I KNOW OKAY! It's just that I was fooling around with the machine. Serious.
Not like he can read this, or maybe he can. Hm.
Then Chemistry was a POP!!!!! quiz. I scored 15 out of ze 20! Not bad not bad. To me lah.
Recess was CAPTAIN'S BALL! I like I like.
Mother tongue was the usual- CANTEEN! to eat and chitchat.
Wheee.

Uhm, before Chemistry remedial was VOLLEYBALL!
Okay that game is like razorblades across your throat.
My hands hurt sooo much. BUT IT WAS WORTH IT!:D (Getting slit across your throat isn't. Don't be DUMB.)

Chem remedial was CHEM PRACTICAL.
Ohmygod lah that one.
Everything was either "colourless solution" or "White PPT".
Aqueous Ammonia gives me a headache. Really. The smell is untahanable.
I stress, Marcus also stress.
Felicia was classic. She broke the...uhm....HUGE ASS test tube thing.
She turned the tap on and washed the test tube. Poorthing broke.LOL!!!

Omg, Long post. But whatevs lah.

I'm still hell upset with you.

Peace!

BB (again).

Your presence is torture to my soul.
Can I kill you?
But if I do, then I won't have you around me anymore.
Which will suck twice as bad your presence.
See the contradiction?

Ugh.

Shading a rose is not easy, AT ALL.
Makes me wanna cryyyyyyyyyyy~

BB.

I'm on my own.

So completely demoralized.

I look at my sketches and wonder why the hell I took art.
Please, not even good at it.
This is depressing.

I need a shoulder to whack.
I don't cry.
Abit weird ah?

Times like this is when I need you most.

Peace!

Stressed,

So much to do.
Stupid art's gonna take up whatever time I have left till wednesday.
Swine.

• Maths
• Chemistry
• Art

This shit is getting on my nerves.
But oh well.

I ran out of aftershave. Gah.
My beard's all sharp and irritating after I shaved it off.
I hate it.

Shall go do Maths la.

Peace!

If you ain't know, now you know.

CALL ME F-A-F-F-Y-F-A-F-F-Y.

Okay, so I survived N2D2.
I dreaded almost every single bit of it but I still had fun.
The boys toilet was a complete disaster.
Smelly like rafflesia.

First Aid duty was rather fun.
I don't know why.
OMG, I ENJOYED FIRST-AIDING!
VICTORY RUN WITH SIEWBEE AND TRACY. LMAO!
and then Tsern ting and Siewbeng left sometime close to 8.
But SSSSK WAS THERE! OMGOMG. LOLOL!!!
I heard so much about Temasek Junior College.
Weird weird cases they have.
I had fun chitchatting with SSSSK!

Aite, so at like 10, I went to the aesthetics room for Night2DayArt!
LOL!! As usual, we camwhored like whores?

Warning: I didn't shave:D

CHEY123456789

Credits to Syaf.

Aite, I'm out.
Shall go read a book or something.

Peace!

URGH!

Urgh, N2D2. (Stupid shifts. 5-7, run. 7-8, first aid duty. 8-10,run again. 10- 5am, Night2Daypainting(ART),5-7, run again)
How am I gonna survive?
Urgh, Punjabi Mock Exam on Saturday.
HOW AM I GONNA STUDY FOR IT?

This sucks.

Peace!

Peta nahi.

I don't know which is worse.
The dude above being around my age and standing at 6"1
OR
Me being completely laggy in Math class today
OR
Me giving up after a few hours. [Killed my ego, destroyed my self-esteem and stabbed me deep in the gut]

N2D2 is approaching and I'm seriously dreading it.
I'm gonna run the 5-7pm slot.
And then Fly the hell up to ART ROOM and ART overnight.
God knows how I'll survive but I shall try.

Actually, I might not be overnighting.
I've got tuition on Saturday and I do not want to miss it again.
1 lesson missed for MATH/CHEM/PHY tuition.
1 month worth of lessons missed for PUNJABI.
Bra-freaking-vo!

Shall start with my homework and art at 11pm.Getting really really really really really pissed.

Peace!

Epic.

When two dudes decide to act like models.

Try to follow me.

My current favourite korean song.
Okay, I don't really fancy korean bands/girl groups.
But this song is just nice to listen to.
Call me a fake, I say FUCK YOU BITCHHEADS Like also got problem lah? KNNBCCB!

Peace!

This is me.

How can I be so insensitive?
I shouldn't have treated you like that.
I'm really very very very sorry for giving you the cold shoulder.
Accept my apology, please:)

N2D2

I CHOOSE NOT TO ATTEND!
My reason? A complete waste of time and........yeah just time.

Ohmygod, can't I just stay home and do my art rather than run 9km at night?
Gah.
No doubt I like to run(and walk), but 9km is completely absurd especially for a fatass like me.
Gah Gah.
If I self-excuse my ass, I'll get demerit points and that's what I don't want. Detention's out of the question too.

(Looking on the brighter side of life),
My classmates and St John mates will be there.
I'll be running/walking in a group with mah homies from SJAB! woot woot.
A one night getaway from all the O level stress.
Hm.

Aiyah, see how lah.

Peace!

Liver.

Damn this shit nasty.

Virginal.

Some call it jezebel, I call it ATTENTION.

Fuck off the face of the earth.
Irritant.
Imbecile.

Peace!

Aphrodite.

Firstly,

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR MARRIAGE, BROTHER KEL!

I ate quite a lot.
Hell full now.
I like the new scholl shoes. Super comfy.
Aite, confession.
There was this red carpet and I was bored....so I walked down the red carpet acting like a male model. You know how they walk? I did exactly the same. I kept doing that whenever I walk on the red carpet. Hope no one noticed. LOL!

I shall take a mini break from art.
I shall read my book instead.
And snap, do the famous SPONGEBOB DANCE.
Dang, thas ze biggity BOMB.

Ohoh! After the lunch, we dropped KB off at some school in Ang Mo Kio.
They had a showcase in the school.
And guess for what.
CARS!
They had:

Jaguars. HEARTXZ!

Porsches.

Lamborghinis

Rolls royces

Mercedez convertibles.FerrarisBentleys

Break the ice.

Peace!

Bird club.

Zis is cool.

Today, was mostly filled with negative comments.
Like a tsunami of negativity hit me.
First it was _____.
Then, it was art.
Comparing the both of them, I say ART is worse.
I'm done with 80% of it.
I just need more sketches with quality and more photoshopped images.

So, Artsy fartsians had lunch together today.
As usual, crazy crap happened.

I was asking Syaf, Lala and Syamsul about their CCAs in primary school.
Here are their replies:

Syaf : Fine arts & ceramics club. *CHEYBAH! Someone like to play with CLAY ah.*

Lala: International dance (*I forgot how to say it in malay...* HAHAHAHHA! Aqillah was in dance. woot!)

Here's the abit anti-climax reply.

Syamsul : BIRD CLUB and then ART CLUB.

LMAO! Cute sia, bird club. I've not heard of any school in singapore having a club that's meant for the caretaking of birds till recently.

The other two were in CCAs that had got to do with Arts but syamsul.........LOL!!! No offense ah sam but it's just hilarious.

Hey hey, put the word "UP" at the end of the very first sentence I sent to you.

Peace!

Juicy.

Life,
Hectic.
If only time would slow down.

Preliminary examinations in less than three weeks time.
O levels, less than 3 months away.
I don't want the September holidays.
Or maybe I do.

Peace!

Potential breakup song.

I had this song stuck in my head for almost the whole of today.
I switched to:



LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!



I now have this song stuck in my head.

Back to Killer subject, ART!

Peace!

J

Vampires suck.

I wanna watch this movie!!!!
18th august. So close to prelims.
Like a day before start of prelims.
Ah shucks.

Angst.

-PARAMORE-

Just the band that can take me out of this nightmare, temporarily.

Okay so school was alright.
I am actually happy that the weekends are here.
I usually dread the weekends.
The weekends usually bore me to near death.
But it's a different story today.
I bet it's the same every other day starting from now.
I need a break. Too much homework stresses me to the maximum and on top of that Mountainous pile of homework, I have ART.

Dear lord.

I'm glad I'm close to finishing my Art coursework.
But here's the part that kills the mood.
ART PRELIMINARY PAPER AND ART PAPER 2.
Ohmygosh.

Anyways, I applied for Direct Poly Admission.
I used LEADERSHIP as my strength.
Hm, Hoping Singapore Poly or Temasek Poly takes me in after the interview.
Aerospace Engineering, Biatches.
Or maybe Aviation Management and Services.
Hallelujah.

I like to walk back home from school.
It allows me to THINK. Like really THINK.
And I've thought.
I miss my EBF alot. :(
The current one is too much trouble (Okay, not really but...)
You tell me this you tell me that.
I help, I help and I help.
But it's not good enough.
It's somehow always about you.

Being a close-to-adult-teen is no fun at all.
All these complications and confusion.
The dread and misery.
It's just a heavy load on my back.
O levels adds to it.
But I just have to work hard and survive this tiring journey.
It'll be over soon.
Positive mindset!

I shall do math.
It might help me feel better.

Sorry about the lengthy post.
Just wanted to let everything out.

Peace!

Diary of Jane.

Okay so, school was long.
Dreadful.
Tomorrow, another long ass day.
I gots lotsa homework to complete. SHIT.
I must complete SS and GEOG! MUST!

Art was short due to the time I ended class.
As usual lah, crapped and crapped and crapped.
It's the Art thing.

*Song plays* I OPEN THE DOOOORRR~
Aqillah and Syaf : AIYAH, OPEN LAH! GOT HANDLE THEN OPEN LAH. OPEN MUST TELL MEH!?! TSK!

LOL! seriously.

Woot, shall go complete my work soon.

Peace!

Right spot at the right time.

This song, Mah fav.
HAHAHAHAH.
NICE OKAY!

School was the usual.
Art was a full 7 hours of utter tedium.
Hell for short.
But it's gonna end soon.
Hallelujah.

Forever. You & me, dear Britney.

HAHAH! Eh saf! That's pure affection okay.
Whee. \m/
See ya at rock climber's a.k.a second home.
Oh snap lah Oh snap.

Peace!

Biard.

I'm hating my BEARD.
This CARPE DIEM SJAB tee I'm wearing is super comfy. (L)

I don't know what you want. What's your problem?

Bloody hell.

If I could get a tattoo, it would be something like this.
On my back.

Fuck art man!
It's hell stressful.
But all part of life's whatever-that-word-is.
FUCK THIS SHIT!

Peace!

I just can't keep living this way.

This fucking black cloud still follows me.

Bored bored bored.
Gon' get my homework done by 3am and the read two chapters of ze book.
This rocks, the studying mood.

Okay, I'm on a strict diet.
LOL!
Believe that.

WHEEEE! 1,2,3!

Peace!

So much to do, So little time.

CPN on friday till yesterday morning.
Hm, It was alright.
G-double O-D-J-O-B GOOD JOB GOOD JOB *clap clap* GOOD JOB GOOD JOB! *clap clap*
I wanted to stay up to survive the movie marathon but gawd I was sleepy.
We had to sleep on mats. Hard mats cos we didn't bring our sleeping bag etc.
But it's fine :D
Both my arms are aching tho'.

Now about my title.
I assume many O level students face this problem.
We have so much to do, so much to practice but so little time to do so.
It sucks, really.
The thought of O levels just being around the corner makes me panic like hell.
Got my O level examination schedule.
Oh lord.
I NEED TO MANAGE MY TIME WELL. NO MORE OUTINGS! NO MORE SLACKING!
This is a sacrificial process where many things will have to be sacrificed.
But it's for my own good:D

ENDURE JAGDAVE, ENDURE.

Peace!

EH SYAF!

EH SAF! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LAH SEYY! :D

Okok, I write you a post.
*Ahhem*
DEAR SAF! YOU HAVE BEEN GREAT LAH! A very funny friend lah you.
Anyhoo, EH WE KNOW EACH OTHER FOR 5 YEARS SIOL! WOOT.
We pretty ancient ah? HAHAHAH!
Okok,YOU'RE ONE OF THE BESTEST PEOPLE I KNOW.
Lets work hard for our new album ah!
(Btw, our latest single : ALEXANDRA)
OMG! I should've told rockclimber that today was your birthday. Then we can all giggle at his drama-ish turn-around and start clapping thing. LOL!
EH BASF FOREVER AH! \m/
I hope you enjoyed your day:D

Ps: GROW TALLER *wide smile*